Today my mother-in-law and I went up to Lewes to see Jen at a craft show held by the group "Delaware By Hand". It was a bigger show/fair than we expected -- Jen too. She said that she did fairly well. Yay. I really do love her work. And we enjoyed the craft show. So many clever and beautiful things.
My ex/her dad stopped by. It's so hard to see how old he looks. I know it's because he has never been a terribly healthy person and hasn't taken very good care of himself. But Jen and Dan both said that it had been a good visit so far, which is good. The kids also explained the logistical issues of going to DC for Memorial Day and he hadn't realized how far it really was. Plus, I don't even know how he could walk from a metro stop to the Vietnam memorial and they'd never be able to drive down town -- rolling thunder will be rolling in addition to all the other tourists. It would be insane and they helped Brad realize that. So they'll find fun things to do locally.
Jo and I hit a couple of new junk stores on our way back home. The consignment store in Millsboro was awesome! We will definitely be going back there. I even told Jen about it because I think she and Dan would love it. :-)
And, because no report would be complete without a health issue of some sort ... I was also feeling a little crampy today and I did a little spotting again. Crap. This time it was bright red, so I'm wondering if it was a delayed reaction to the biopsy on Monday. I'll make note of the date so I can tell the doctor if I experience more. There won't be another biopsy though. They can just schedule the D&C if it comes to that.
Saturday, May 29, 2010
Whew
I got the results from the biopsy and it was clean! No further treatment AND no more biopsies. And the mamogram was negative, so everything is ok.
Of course, I can't be happy with that. I have to cause drama SOMEPLACE. My ex-husband is coming to visit my daughter this weekend which is no big deal. But he wants to go into DC on Memorial Weekend and visit the Vietnam Memorial. Jen and Dan said they didn't want to go because of the traffic, etc. But Brad is insisting. He makes me mad when he's being selfish -- which is all the time.
1. It's a 3 hour drive to DC on a good day. That's 6 hours in a car seat for my grandson. And that's if they're lucky. I'm sure it will be longer on Memorial weekend.
2. They will be standing in long lines to look at a wall. A 4 year old will be bored and won't understand the idea of a Memorial. He will be bored and fussy.
3. It's a lot of walking in the sun and standing around in crowds and Jen is pregnant.
4. They don't want to go, Jen knows that Dan doesn't want to go. She feels caught in the middle which is stressful and doesn't need the stress ... she's pregnant.
I understand that he wants to go and he wants to share it with Jen, but he's being selfish. He asked and they said no thank you. It annoys me that he continues to put Jen in this position. She would gladly go with him another time ... just not Memorial weekend. He has no idea what DC is like on a holiday like this. He hasn't been in the area, except for short visits, for over 20 years!
Since I can't do anything about Brad, I attempted to fortify Jen. I sent a pretty harsh email telling her that her dad has always been babied and he's selfish and she needs to not carry on the tradition of catering. I wanted her to be able stand up for what she wants. But I think I overdid it. :-(
I really do think that it would help them have a more honest relationship with her dad and I have to think that's a good thing. But that's not for me to say anymore. She's not 8. She's a grown woman with a 4 year old and another on the way. So I should shut up. But she's still my little girl inside and it kills me to see her getting twisted in a knot. She doesn't deserve it. She's been nothing but a good daughter. But I have to shut up now. All I can do is hope that the visit goes well and she doesn't have to go into DC.
Of course, I can't be happy with that. I have to cause drama SOMEPLACE. My ex-husband is coming to visit my daughter this weekend which is no big deal. But he wants to go into DC on Memorial Weekend and visit the Vietnam Memorial. Jen and Dan said they didn't want to go because of the traffic, etc. But Brad is insisting. He makes me mad when he's being selfish -- which is all the time.
1. It's a 3 hour drive to DC on a good day. That's 6 hours in a car seat for my grandson. And that's if they're lucky. I'm sure it will be longer on Memorial weekend.
2. They will be standing in long lines to look at a wall. A 4 year old will be bored and won't understand the idea of a Memorial. He will be bored and fussy.
3. It's a lot of walking in the sun and standing around in crowds and Jen is pregnant.
4. They don't want to go, Jen knows that Dan doesn't want to go. She feels caught in the middle which is stressful and doesn't need the stress ... she's pregnant.
I understand that he wants to go and he wants to share it with Jen, but he's being selfish. He asked and they said no thank you. It annoys me that he continues to put Jen in this position. She would gladly go with him another time ... just not Memorial weekend. He has no idea what DC is like on a holiday like this. He hasn't been in the area, except for short visits, for over 20 years!
Since I can't do anything about Brad, I attempted to fortify Jen. I sent a pretty harsh email telling her that her dad has always been babied and he's selfish and she needs to not carry on the tradition of catering. I wanted her to be able stand up for what she wants. But I think I overdid it. :-(
I really do think that it would help them have a more honest relationship with her dad and I have to think that's a good thing. But that's not for me to say anymore. She's not 8. She's a grown woman with a 4 year old and another on the way. So I should shut up. But she's still my little girl inside and it kills me to see her getting twisted in a knot. She doesn't deserve it. She's been nothing but a good daughter. But I have to shut up now. All I can do is hope that the visit goes well and she doesn't have to go into DC.
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
Now what?!
A couple of weeks ago my boobs were really sore. I really thought that, if I didn't know any better, I was about to start my period. EXCEPT that I haven't had a period since the beginning of 2006! Lo and behold, last weekend I spotted for about 3 days. Ugh.
So I contacted my GYN and asked her if I should be concerned. She said not yet, but I should have it checked. She wanted to do an endometrial biopsy. I have had an IUD, so I figured it wouldn't be any worse than that. WRONG! Yowza! I can't even describe the feeling. It's not pain like stepping on a nail or cutting yourself, but damn, that hurt. I know I was doing a lot of heavy breathing. I think I hyperventilated almost to the point of fainting because my fingers were cold and tingling like crazy. I finally asked her to stop and she did. She put a cold compress on my head and left me to lie down for 10 or 15 minutes which I very much needed.
The good news is, because there are relatively few nerves in the uterus (though I'm pretty sure she found them all), or whatever, as soon as she stopped, the pain/uncomfortableness stopped. And there wasn't any lingering discomfort or pain. I just felt weak from almost passing out. We even rode our bikes after work like we always do.
So now I wait to find out if I have plain old hyperplasia or nasty dysplasia and the course of treatment that will ensure that I never have to have another endometrial biopsy.
I swear, it's 2 steps forward and 1 step back. I've lost weight. Improved numbers in my blood work. Am feeling better and more fit. I just have this uterus issue to sort out. At least, for now, I'm still ahead overall. Eventually it will be 1 step forward and 2 steps back. :-( So I guess it's not that bad yet.
So I contacted my GYN and asked her if I should be concerned. She said not yet, but I should have it checked. She wanted to do an endometrial biopsy. I have had an IUD, so I figured it wouldn't be any worse than that. WRONG! Yowza! I can't even describe the feeling. It's not pain like stepping on a nail or cutting yourself, but damn, that hurt. I know I was doing a lot of heavy breathing. I think I hyperventilated almost to the point of fainting because my fingers were cold and tingling like crazy. I finally asked her to stop and she did. She put a cold compress on my head and left me to lie down for 10 or 15 minutes which I very much needed.
The good news is, because there are relatively few nerves in the uterus (though I'm pretty sure she found them all), or whatever, as soon as she stopped, the pain/uncomfortableness stopped. And there wasn't any lingering discomfort or pain. I just felt weak from almost passing out. We even rode our bikes after work like we always do.
So now I wait to find out if I have plain old hyperplasia or nasty dysplasia and the course of treatment that will ensure that I never have to have another endometrial biopsy.
I swear, it's 2 steps forward and 1 step back. I've lost weight. Improved numbers in my blood work. Am feeling better and more fit. I just have this uterus issue to sort out. At least, for now, I'm still ahead overall. Eventually it will be 1 step forward and 2 steps back. :-( So I guess it's not that bad yet.
Thursday, May 20, 2010
Hunger pangs just won't quit
Lately I've been experiencing hunger pangs like when I started. I just feel hungry all the time. What's the deal with that? I hope it subsides again. A few more pounds have trickled off, so I've lost 30 pounds. As long as it's not going up, I'm happy.
We had a few days of rain, so Jay and I couldn't ride our bikes after work. I didn't want to miss my evening "workout", so I dusted off my old Winsor Pilates DVD and gave it a whirl. It was awesome! All the moves that I have been struggling with for a long time were a cinch! Rollover -- feet on floor over my head? No problem! Jack knife -- feet over head, parallel to floor then lift until toes are pointed to the ceiling? Piece of cake! I felt like super woman. :-)
So I try to think about how good that made me feel and not how hungry I am. Like I said, I hope this is just a phase and it passes.
We had a few days of rain, so Jay and I couldn't ride our bikes after work. I didn't want to miss my evening "workout", so I dusted off my old Winsor Pilates DVD and gave it a whirl. It was awesome! All the moves that I have been struggling with for a long time were a cinch! Rollover -- feet on floor over my head? No problem! Jack knife -- feet over head, parallel to floor then lift until toes are pointed to the ceiling? Piece of cake! I felt like super woman. :-)
So I try to think about how good that made me feel and not how hungry I am. Like I said, I hope this is just a phase and it passes.
Sunday, May 9, 2010
Mothers' Day
It's been a nice day. A nice weekend. Yesterday was fun activities. It was the 50th anniversary of the Ocean City airport, so we went there for the festivities. Then we went to the Berlin Jazz & Blues festival to listen to our friend Chris English play some awesome blues music. And I'm not just saying that. There was a line of folks getting his autograph and buying CD's. He's good.
Today was chores. I know. I'm not supposed to do that on Mothers' Day, but it's all stuff that has to get done. But I also did some yard work which was actually pretty pleasant. The temperature was on the cool side which is perfect for me. I was very comfortable. The yards (front and back) are actually looking pretty good. Jay has had the lawns look great for some time now. But the flower beds are starting to be pretty good too. It feels good.
And I got a lovely e-card from Jen. So it's been a good Mothers' day weekend. I am content. :-)
Today was chores. I know. I'm not supposed to do that on Mothers' Day, but it's all stuff that has to get done. But I also did some yard work which was actually pretty pleasant. The temperature was on the cool side which is perfect for me. I was very comfortable. The yards (front and back) are actually looking pretty good. Jay has had the lawns look great for some time now. But the flower beds are starting to be pretty good too. It feels good.
And I got a lovely e-card from Jen. So it's been a good Mothers' day weekend. I am content. :-)
Saturday, May 8, 2010
A good day
Tomorrow is Mother's Day, but today felt like it should have been my mother's day. It was a great day. We went to the airport this morning because it's the 50th anniversary of the Ocean City Airport. It was nice to visit with people and we always like being there.
Then today was also the Jazz & Blues Festival in Berlin. I went by myself for a while so I could go into the shops and browse while the music was playing outside. Then Jay and I went back later to listen to our friend Chris English who was playing his classic delta blues at the 3:30 set. I always love listening to Chris. It was awesome.
Then we went to Three Brothers in north Ocean City. They were having a slow day, so we were able to visit with folks that work there. It turns out, that one of the new guys, lives in our neighborhood. He's actually on the HOA board for the townhouses. He recognized Jay. We weren't sure if that was a good thing because half the folks agree with us on the evilness of HOA's and half love the damn things. Well, this guy agreed with us for the most part. He's doing what we tried to do at first ... if you can't beat 'em, join 'em. We were on one of the committees when we first moved here thinking we could make some changes for the better. We were wrong. But Mike is still trying. I hope he has better luck than we did. But it was a fun chat. He actually misses Jay speaking out. :-)
Then, on the way home Jay actually offered to stop at Roses (a local department store) so I could look for my 100th pair of flip flops. :-) I admired a woman's flip flops at the airport this morning and he remembered that. And, knowing how much I love flip flops, we stopped in on our way home. And, of course, I found a pair that I liked and got them.
So I feel like I've had mother's day already. The only odd thing is that my lip has swollen for some reason. And I've been coughing a lot today. Probably an allergy thing. Oh well. I don't know what's causing, but there's nothing I'd change about today, so I guess I'll just have to live with the fat lip.
I hope everyone has as good a Mother's Day tomorrow.
Then today was also the Jazz & Blues Festival in Berlin. I went by myself for a while so I could go into the shops and browse while the music was playing outside. Then Jay and I went back later to listen to our friend Chris English who was playing his classic delta blues at the 3:30 set. I always love listening to Chris. It was awesome.
Then we went to Three Brothers in north Ocean City. They were having a slow day, so we were able to visit with folks that work there. It turns out, that one of the new guys, lives in our neighborhood. He's actually on the HOA board for the townhouses. He recognized Jay. We weren't sure if that was a good thing because half the folks agree with us on the evilness of HOA's and half love the damn things. Well, this guy agreed with us for the most part. He's doing what we tried to do at first ... if you can't beat 'em, join 'em. We were on one of the committees when we first moved here thinking we could make some changes for the better. We were wrong. But Mike is still trying. I hope he has better luck than we did. But it was a fun chat. He actually misses Jay speaking out. :-)
Then, on the way home Jay actually offered to stop at Roses (a local department store) so I could look for my 100th pair of flip flops. :-) I admired a woman's flip flops at the airport this morning and he remembered that. And, knowing how much I love flip flops, we stopped in on our way home. And, of course, I found a pair that I liked and got them.
So I feel like I've had mother's day already. The only odd thing is that my lip has swollen for some reason. And I've been coughing a lot today. Probably an allergy thing. Oh well. I don't know what's causing, but there's nothing I'd change about today, so I guess I'll just have to live with the fat lip.
I hope everyone has as good a Mother's Day tomorrow.
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